Who Am I? MY Name is Kelley. I am a Wife, MOM, Daughter, Friend, Coach, and many other titles… I have 5 children, a baby on the way to make 6. I am tremendously blessed to have an amazing husband to support and love me on my journey.
I am a sponge who loves to learn and I am in constant pursuit of truth and finally…I am on a journey to Freedom…and I want to invite you to join me.
It begins here: I had a revelation about a year ago…
It was one of those moments when something that you have heard over and over again, a message that was planted as a tiny seed, finally begins to grow. Growth is not always easy. I can tell you from experience as a person who loves to Garden, there are many mistakes made in the process to be able to enjoy a fruitful harvest...But they are necessary.
For years of my life I have heard, “You are loved”, “Love yourself”, “Your life is a blessing”, and other words of affirmation. Yet, to me they all felt likes words from a Hallmark card that lift you up for a split moment and then over time fade. Why? Because I didn’t believe it…I knew about all of my daily mistakes as a mom and wife, I knew about my crazy childhood and past, and obviously this person did not…or else they would never say such things. These were words that I wanted to be truth, but to me they were not, they were kind gestures, like a Hallmark Card to give me a moment of feeling better.
Then it hit me…
One day a kind and wise friend said to me, “This whole notion that you can’t love someone unless you Love yourself first is faulty…you can not ever love yourself on your own. Self Love leads to Perfectionism too often, The false Idea that you have to make yourself worthy, or that only you can really love you, which robs you of ever receiving love from others.”
What? Ok…so what do we do? What are we working towards? What is the goal?
He said “You must first know and accept that you ARE loved, that your ARE worthy of love RIGHT NOW, and that you ARE lovable, before you can EVER love someone else.”
AND HERE IS THE CATCH: “You exist, you are here, you are held in existence by LOVE itself, and you never have to merit it, earn it, you can not lose it…all you need to do is receive it…”
Freedom comes from Receiving the Gift…The Truth about you, The Love intended for YOU, the LOVE that holds you in existence FOREVER.
THIS BLEW ME AWAY….
Yet, old habits die hard, and I found myself still in a place where I continued to try to fix me. To perfect me, to grow me….ME, ME, ME. Do you know what I have found? IT IS EXHAUSTING and It is NOT living to be this way.
So I took my first step towards Freedom that day by HEARING that truth and letting it take root in my heart. I received that Seed and started to seek ways to help it grow in me.
I found that it grew more when rather than fix myself I started to take steps to feed myself truth. HOW? Taking Care of my Body & Soul. I found that through daily Exercising my Faith in Prayer, Service, and Relationship that I had opportunities to Share this truth and See it in others. I found that through daily exercising my body and fueling it well I started to feel nourished within and looked in the mirror without the hatred that I struggled with for so long.
The Key is that you NEED both…Otherwise you go back to “fix it” mode and you start to starve inside…we are Body and Soul. Both need Exercise and good Nutrition.
So Am I 100% Free? Not yet 🙂 I see it, I seek it, I pursue it, I pray for it….but I still fall. Yet now that I have a taste of it…I will NOT be satisfied with anything else. And I feel as if this journey is meant to be shared with others.
So Freedom in the Gift…The Gift is You…and Freedom in Christ Himself. The journey is the daily surrender, and steps we take to fuel and exercise our Body and Soul. This blog is my daily journey in hopes I can offer support and encouragement to you in yours.
I look forward for what is coming…and hope to share pieces of it all here. Please feel free to come with me on my journey and I pray the seed has been planted for you to take the first step in yours…
Peace & Blessings