I am sitting here in the waiting room of my son’s speech therapy appointment with so much in my brain and on my heart.
I have been reading this amazing book called “You’re Loved No Matter What” by Holly Gerth. It is really feeding my soul in deep ways and showing me a wound I carry…a very heavy one. I think though as I sit here, that I am not alone…so I’m sharing my heart to let you know you are not alone.
I am a busy mom…6 kids…busy life…
I hear all the time..”how do you do it?”
I get overwhelmed…and I beg for grace. I have an amazing husband and support system around me. But here is the other truth…
I felt this way with 5,4,3,2, and 1. I felt this way before kids too. I think that the beauty is that my children stretch me and by doing that they are teaching me NOT that I am not enough, NOT that I can’t do this, and NOT that I am a failure…RATHER that I don’t have to do this perfectly to be enough.
Mother Theresa captured the truth about this so well though…
We are not called to be successful. God calls us to be faithful.
We all want to matter. We want to feel enough. But many times we are running on empty. We have no more grace in the spiritual tank. We are looking for grace…searching and seeking to find it in a “perfect house” or “perfect kids” or a “perfect reflection”.
I see my sons struggles with learning, my daughters struggles with friends, and my husbands tiredness from helping me and balancing work. I see these things and I want to blame ME. IF I WERE ENOUGH…
The house would be perfect.
My kids would never struggle.
My husband would be more refreshed.
I would already be in my pre pregnancy clothes.
I would not struggle.
These wounds would not ache…
So what do we do???
You are enough. So am I.
We do battle in this life. But we don’t need to fight with ourselves and exhaust ourselves. We don’t need to seek peace in a perfect ordered home…we need a perfect ordered heart.
This does not mean our heart will not have mess, Or a heart that never fears or struggles…
Instead a heart connected to an IV of grace to keep us hydrated as the healing in our life continues each day.
Otherwise we will exhaust ourselves.
So Mamma…YOU ARE ENOUGH
YOU ARE LOVED
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL
YOU ARE TREASURED
AND YOU ARE NEVER FORGOTTEN.
Take some time to surrender that wound…and let the IV drip begin. Drink in the grace. Hydrate your soul. You are worth it.