Today is gray. It’s cloudy outside and inside as well. So often as mammas we have to push through these days and make a smile for the ones we love. And then some days we just push through…
Today was one of those days. And it’s funny to me how the Lord works. In the midst of struggle he reaches out to us. He uses us to reach out to others and he reminds us that he is there in the midst of the gray.
I think as moms we try to hide the gray too much. We try to stay in the “I’m ok” zone, when we are not. It’s as if we need permission to not be ok…we need permission to have an off day, we need permission and we will not give it to our ourselves.
I’ve been battling some blues and the Lord has reached out in so many ways to me to show he is there… That it’s ok to not be ok…and that we do not need to hide it.
Mamma did you know that even when you are struggling you are beautiful? Did you know that even though you are gray that you are loved. And did you know that there is no shame in being gray….
I did not know that…or at least I did not apply that to me…just to others. Putting yourself Last…taking care of others is ok..but we need to secure our oxygen mask and make sure our air is pure and plenty as we Breath in each day. Sometimes the last needs to be loved on first…even the Lord agrees with me on that.
So if your down, if your gray…let the light shine in from someone else. Don’t try to fix you before you reach out. Just be where you are and know that others are there to love and help you through it. There is Hope…
And the beauty is we do not have to make it happen. We do not have to have all the answers. We do not have to be perfect. We need to receive the gift of this moment. To let others love us. To let ourselves be seen. To let one another know as moms that we are not alone. And to ask the Lord what does he have for us. To love us. To move this mountain. To teach us and guide us where to go.
Even though I am gray…I’m not supposed to stay here. I’m not supposed to feel this way all the time. I’m not supposed to hide in shame. I’ve Benj created to be made whole, to receive love and grace and healing and to trust in all the future holds by placing myself in the hands of the one who made me.
To trust he will move this mountain. And yours as well. To give us hope. So know if you battle this that you are not alone. You are loved. And take some time to ask for help if you need it. We all need help at times and it is ok to admit it.
Let’s take some time to pray for one another today.