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When the long goodbye feels too short.
This past July after many years battling Frontal Lobe Dementia we kissed my mom on this earth one final time… I got a phone call from my Stepfather on July 1st letting me know that mom had changed a bit…
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Can you Cease Striving?
Hello Friend, it has been awhile! How is it already April? How is Lent over and we are now in Holy week? The world is busy and loud my friends. I have felt more and more the need for quiet…
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Me First Feels Weird…but is it?
One of the hardest part of being a mom is that there is so much of my day I can’t control… I can’t control the babies sleep I can’t control the tantrums I can’t control when kids fight I can’t…
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He wants us to take a water break
As a mom I find it is rarely quiet in my house. I crave quiet at times, yet when it finally is quiet there is a awkward uncomfortableness because in so many ways we have been conditioned to always be…
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Somewhere in the middle of it all…
I have had so many things to ponder these past weeks of May. May is the month of Mothers…and my mom is currently declining from frontal lobe dementia. I talk about it here from time to time and on my…
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You can’t get it back…
It is mothers day and I feel the need to share something heavy I have been carrying for sometime that has really overtaken me today as we celebrate mothers day. It is a kind of grief that is hard to…
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Have you ever felt stuck in the start?
I have been talking for some time about writing a book. I have even started it. I have a title, an outline and the start of Chapter one…and then I just froze. Life got busy, hectic, chaotic, and I started…
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His Delight
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.” Jeremiah 1:5 Although This passage is often hung on nursery walls…it struck me as…
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All Things…
I share with your today something I often carry in the quiet. I carry a deep ache, a longing, a grief as I watch my mom slowly slip away from here dementia and I don’t like to talk about it,…
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The lie that nobody sees you
Today the clutter and mess started to really hit me… We had a round of sickness last week so I was busy taking care of all the peeps. On top of that snow and a dog that escapes and not…
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The world is better because of your Yes
“God gave you such a good heart that he brought all your beautiful children into the world so the world could experience more of it…” These are words spoken over me in the confessional after many tears and sharing of…
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He is For you…
Do you struggle to believe the Lord wants you? Do you believe he Loves you right now as you are? That you bring him so much joy in your sheer existence? or Do you find yourself striving to be enough,…
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When the waves knock you down…
I felt like I entered the year of 2021 excited and now I am holding my breath… So many losses in 2020…and I am not even talking about the virus my friends. and I felt as if the waves of…
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Dear Mom, you are a gift even in your suffering…
My mother was diagnosed with Alzheimers/Dementia 6 years ago. I remember the day she called to tell me, she had such peace in her voice and she said “do not worry, everything is going to be fine”. The news of…
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Do you feel like you Fail Lent?
If you feel like you always “fail lent” you are missing the point… Growing up lent was a time I would give up something for the point to lose weight…anyone else give up chocolate? Or that time after my conversion…
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He Sees You…
You See Me Lord My restlessnessMy fearMy impatienceMy struggle to controlMy lack of trustMy unforgivenessMy perfectionismMy flawsMy mistakes… And you wait…With me You pray…Over me You reach out…To me Asking me to lay down what I am holding onto so…
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How do you begin?
I have thought about and wanted to write a book since I was a little girl. I remember writing on my dads first office computer…I must have been 7 or 8 and it was some sort of reflection on life…
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Devotionals & Reflections, Grace found in Grief, Mindset in the Mother HOOD, Reflections of the Heart
Living in the Messy Middle…
It is no mystery that life is not always easy. Yes we can keep a positive focus. Yes we can work to have gratitude in all things. Yes we can shift our focus, or “Pivot” which felt like the third…
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How Can you Praise Him Now? Advent Reflection week 3.
I have been longing for something that feels certain in this season. I feel like in the waiting of Christmas our hearts and souls have a longing to hold onto something that won’t let us down or leave us feeling…
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Savor the Season Advent Week One Reflection
I had it on my heart to share a weekly reflection from one of the gospels in Luke leading up to the Birth of Jesus. I find that in the midst of Advent sometimes we can find ourselves trying to…
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From Knowing to Understanding…
I have been doing a LOT of driving lately with 6 of my kids in 3 different schools, and for me drive time is thinking time. I have so many ideas, thoughts, brain storms, prayer sessions all going on while…
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Why NOT Me?
Why NOT Me??? I used to think of this phrase as a response when someone accomplished a great thing in their life by worldly measures, instead of saying “I could never do that” you asked the question “why not me?”…
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Your Sacred Heart is Our Home.
Your Sacred Heart is our Home…A reflection of Psalm 84 by Kelley Brown Lord you are my refugeYou Hold all that my heart longs for and holds dear.I thirst for Your Shelter.To hear the beating of your Sacred Heart is…
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The Art of Overthinking…
If I could be an expert in anything in life…it would not be nutrition, wellness, marriage, theology, childbirth, nature, gardening, housekeeping… None of those things… I would be and expert in the Art of Overthinking. I am an expert at…
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Heavens Gain…
Heaven gained another Saint this weekend as we said goodbye too soon to our little baby Hope. On the way home from New Orleans I had a feeling and took a test. I’ll always cherish telling Courtney and the twinkle…
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Lessons I learned from 3 little birds…
As I sit here in my den after weeks of swirling thoughts and emotions wanting to write and share the things my heart has been pondering
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The gift of a name…
A beautiful memory worth sharing…. The Gifts in the Grief…( I wrote this back in 2019) I hope you don’t mind as we continue to share. Our little Stella is already working so much in our lives. Sharing to me…
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Some Anniversaries are sad…
Some Anniversaries are hard… Three years ago on this day I took my youngest two for our first ultrasound to see their new baby and hear the heartbeat…It was a sad day in our home to find she had passed……
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My Real Reel…
How’s this for a highlight reel of motherhood? The real reel…. There are seasons where you can’t keep up with it all. This is my kitchen. Every morning when I come home from drop off and believe it or not…